Day 13

Sometimes I want to just rip my heart out, you know?  Wow, what a way to start...I swear I'm not depressed or anything.  Just a bit introspective.  Damn, if I was depressed, after everything good that has happened to me in the past few weeks, I would be sure to bury myself in a hole for being so selfish.  Anyway, I just don't understand how one's feelings - their emotions, pleasures and whimsies - can decide the fate of one's entire mood, persona and even existence.  I mean, who cares if a guy doesn't like you back? (I wish I didn't - it ails me all too much).  I'm most certain it's not the end of the world, there are people dying on the streets as you read this!  But in all honesty, we can't help but think about these feelings that pulse within our veins at invidious intensities much beyond our control.  I am starting to realize just how invidious I really am - it's kind of silly.  Anyway, it would make things - like simple friendships, work, school and life in general - much simpler if we could all just choose to maybe take our hearts out of our chests for a brief period, or turn off the pulsating emotions that invade our thoughts too often?  Like in Once Upon a Time - they can take their hearts out and still live (though it really isn't very beneficial at all), or Pirates of the Caribbean.  Davy Jones knows what's up.  Well, I guess I'll end there.  Someone comment on this, it's quite deep, and I'd like some feedback!

~Cheers!

"Let us not love in word but in deed."  - 1 John 3:18